5.11.2002

I've been thinking about attempting to create a comic to be published. I'm quite young, it probably would be rejected if they knew my age. But Slave Labor publishing seems very enthusiastic about the style I may make the comic in, if I ever do. It will be twisted, sardonic, or just profound. I'm thinking of making it a graphic rendition of a story I wrote in 8th grade, titled "To Forgive," about a creepy forest. I'll probably change the title, though it really explains the story's (unrevised) meaning.

My father's just arrived home. I can hear the murmur of the car from the beginning of the dead-end street. Every time it sounds, my heart sinks with hatred and sadness. I prepare myself for a night of pointless arguing.
I was supposed to call a girl from school today for directions to her house. We have a project due monday. I never did call her, and never will. I don't know who she is and why she's in my group. I wanted to do the project alone.

Friends are old and forgotten, I have yet to make them anew. The new school provides no close friends as yet, and all the real friends I haven't met are gone. Those online friends were my life at one point. I loved them. We've abondoned our social lives together, but hopefully, not each other.

At one point, I used to be obsessed with anime and anime art. I had a website with art of my own and such. It didn't become too popular. As I talked with my friends, interests changed. I became a little gothy, I admit. I fell absolutely in love with this site. I loved the art, and the artist. L0cke.

Recently, I fell in love with another artist. Jhonen Vasquez. Creator of a short-lived Nickelodeon series, "Invader Zim," which I'd only seen one episode of when I accidently got free cable in the new house I now live in. The cable is gone now.

A friend had originally introduced me to Jhonen. She had told me about how upset she was when Invader Zim was cancelled. I went on a vicious search for more of his art after I learned more of him and found beautiful works. I enjoyed it with a passion, as I did with L0cke.

But then, I found this picture off L0cke's site. Jhonen Vasquez is on the left, L0cke in the middle. They've met before, probably at an anime convention of some sort. That's pretty cool. My favorite on-line artist is a fan of my favorite comic book artist. Neat-o.

Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
Hi.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Hey.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
You haven't been there for what, how long?
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
In PACMAN?
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
I haven't set foot in there for a while.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
Matt and Sakhi have broken up & PACMAN's officially dead.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Huh.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Figured both of those would happen.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Actually, I had a pretty good idea that first one was coming.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
So did they.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Apparently.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
So how are you holding up, Natalia?
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
I'm bored.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Ditto.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Not much to do anymore.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
We need to make another thing.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Mm..
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
We only made the thing when we had a group of friends.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
And this little groups fragmenting.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
Yeah.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
People stopped going there all together.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
I stopped, 'cause no one else was there.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
Ah well. I'm out.
Alex Kalishnikov is my hero! says:
See you later.
Champagne is for my real friends; real pain is for my sham friends... says:
Bye.
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Bye.
UrsusTheHorrible: Did you expect her to do it?
Matt The Loathed: To do what?
UrsusTheHorrible: Sakhi said.. she broke up with you.
Matt The Loathed: Whoa! Megaman got a rocket cycle!
Matt The Loathed: She did.
UrsusTheHorrible: Did you expect that?
Matt The Loathed: Yeh.
UrsusTheHorrible: Are you taking it okay?
Matt The Loathed: Me? Oh, sure. I'm fine.
Matt The Loathed: I just hope she's OK.
UrsusTheHorrible: Whether it's comfort or not, I think she's fine too.
Matt The Loathed: Alright. Then everybody's happy.
UrsusTheHorrible: Except you.
(many minutes of silence)

5.05.2002


untouchable
adj.
1. Not to be touched.
2. Out of reach; unobtainable.
3. Being beyond the reach of criticism, impeachment, or attack.
4. Loathsome or unpleasant to the touch.

n. often Untouchable
A member of the class that is excluded from and considered unclean and defiling by the four Hindu castes.

I wish I was pretty like everyone else, but I'm too ugly inside.